am i really that bad?

gosh i think everyone hates me what is the freaking problem i just IMed my sister marie and i was like this is tammy and then she didnt answer but whenever gina IMs her she always answers and it is not fair i think she doesnt like me or something i have done nothing but be nice to her and i get a leave me alone and i am just like okkk idk i think everyone hates me and i really dont care any more i dont know just because i am not as pretty as all the little cheerleaders and stuff doesnt mean that i am a bad person right? i dont know rate me and tell me the truth 1-10 i know i am going to get sooo many 1s or 0s but just do it eve though 0s are not on the list... i mean i dont know people have changed and not in the good way either! i hate it i say just be yourself but people act like they have to become a totally different person around other people and i think they are just a bunch of fakes i dont think i have any true friends as i did last year they are alllllll gone i mean i have 1 good friend Josh and he isnt that great of a friend either but he is better than none i guess and stephanie and megan but stephanie is mean to me all the time i mean we are constantly in a fight i have known her my entire life and she is really nice when she wants to be!!!yeah well i am going to go now because i am like tired of typing a whole bunch of nothing so by! and pleaasssse dont think that i am depressed because i am NOT by any means i just wish that i could meet someone who could understand me i have like a lot of people who act ike my friends but they are backstabbers and i know stuff that they have said about me and they think that i dont know what they say but i do. and i know what people think about me too i mean lay off if you dont have anything nice to say then dont say it my gosh i have to act like a freaking kidergaden teacher lol whatever comment if you want to but i really dont care at this point i guess i am going to stop using this thing i mean it is pointless if you dont get comments right right? i am going to go now because i am tired of wasteing my breath bye